Thursday, November 23, 2017


1. Dress up and have a photoshoot with my best friends in studio

2. Cover a song in studio

3. Own a cool home theater

4. Buy external hardisk
    320 GB, 500 GB (2), 1000 GB

5. Go camping in the woods

6. Followed by famous person on twitter
Pleasure Ellis, Tinashe, Yoko Ono, Jenni Hogan, Justin Bieber, Meilin Gray, DJ Kam Bennett, John Rampton, Murray Newlands

7. Go to
    Japan, England, South Korea, Thailand, Italy, Singapore, Greece, USA, Australia, Brazil, Netherlands, India, France, Hong Kong, Hawaii, Malaysia, Canada, Makkah, Africa, Spain, Germany, Swiss, Bali, Papua, Belitung, Vietnam, Dubai, Macau, Shenzhen

8. Ride a camel

9. Hold a penguin

10. Be taller (at least 158cm)

11. Learn how to play tennis

12. See a monster

13. Have an adventure in amazon

14. See anaconda

15. Own a shop

16. Go Kart

17. Try
Pizza (fruits), Dim Sum, Lemon cake, Gelato, Ddeokbokki, Takoyaki, Nasi lemak, Thai pinneapple fried rice, Goguma, Chicken curry, Mochi (Cheese, Strawberry, Vanilla, Chocolate, Durian, Original), Kimchi, Real cocoa, Blueberry, Gingerbread, Fried ice cream

18. Ride a hovercraft

19. Own a treehouse

20. Swim in an infinity pool

21. Ride a horse

22. Watch sunrise with someone special

23. Water Sport
      Fly fish, Rolling Donut, Scuba Diving, Banana boat, Jet Ski

24. Skydiving

25. Skiing

26. Learn how to play piano

27. Write a novel

28. Volunteering

29. Fall asleep under the stars

30. Own a personal library

31. Meet my idols

32. Win a competition

33. Accepted by my dream college

34. Ride a helicopter

35. Explore the cave

36. Enter a large aquarium

37. Attend a concert

38. Bungee jumping

39. Enter a hot spring bath

40. Bake a cake

41. Have a road trip with friends

42. Be a famous writer

43. See an aurora

44. See a comet

45. Be a designer

46. Attend my elementary school reunion

47. Experience winter

48. Experience autumn

49. Visit a castle

50. Own a polaroid

51. Go to floating market

52. Watch turtles

53. Find or build a secret room

54. Own a handycam

55. Own an SLR

56. Be able to drive a car

57. Ride subway / train

58. Watch musical (live)

59. Play a game/mission with friends in public

60. Design my own dream house

61. See cherry blossom

62. Buy my parents something cool

63. Have a fantastic birthday party

64. Part-time job during college

65. Visit Disneyland, Universal

66. Enter chocolate factory

67. Enter the pyramid

68. Eat in a unique restaurant

69. Go to beach with friends in 2 days

70. Visit a cool museum
Madam Tussaud in Singpore & Hong Kong

71. Win the lottery

72. Rock-climbing

73. Own a closet full of my clothes

74. Ride an elephant

75. Try TOEFL

76. Paint something beautiful

77. Visit an indoor theme park

78. Visit a wonderful tunnel

79. Visit a large maze garden

80. Play in the mud flat

81. Buy a cake for each members of my family on their birthday

82. Go fishing on the lake or river

83. Visit a festival in another country

84. Play around with friends in practice room (in front of mirrors)

85. Received a wonderful gift from someone

86. Go overseas with my entire family

87. Attend my best friend's wedding

88. Visit a unique village
      Dragon Village (Kampung Naga)

89. Own an underground room

90. Party on a yacht

91. Invited by a famous person

92. Wear hanbok

93. Wear kimono

94. Create a movie

95. Live in an apartement

96. Learn magic

97. Save someone's life

98. Launch a big party

99. Cliff jump

100. Swim under waterfall

101. Eat square watermelon

102. Watch fireworks with someone

103. Catch fireflies

104. Ride a gondola

105. Lie down in the meadow

106. Run through a field of flowers

107. Wear a couple tee

108. Archery

109. Own a private jet

110. Go to old bookstore market

111. Own an hourglass

112. Be in a movie

113. Be in a magazine

114. Be in a newspaper
       Interviewed 3x, Poetry, As winner of design competition

115. Hike to Machu Picchu

116. Go on a picnic with friends

117. Visit a circus

118. Bury a time-capsule

119. Fire a real gun

120. Visit Grand Canyon

121. Decorate my own bedroom

122. Buy a new bicycle

123. Go to Wizarding World of Harry Potter

124. Be in a band
Summer, Flushback, Senior High Band

125. Try to be a spy/detective on some simple cases

126. Donate blood

127. Been to a therapist

128. Hold a snake

129. Give a large amount of money to charity

130. Get into real film-making
       When I was 8 (Friend’s music video)

131. Own a polaroid

132. Star gaze from a rooftop

133. Get lost somewhere a whole day

134. Make a friend with famous person

135. Take a photo with celebrity

136. Visit a horror place

137. Watch a live magic show

138. Go to sauna

139. Go fruit picking

140. Smell the smelly tofu

141. Go on a biking trip

142. Buy a meal for a homeless person and have a conversation

143. Make a friend with stranger

144. Jump on trampoline

145. Ride a boat on the river

146. Meet a cancer survivor

147. Hug a panda

148. Look out of a telescope

149. Eat pizza in Italy

150. Sneak out at night and do something fun with friends

151. Acknowledged by famous person

152. Visit a shrine

153. Own a dreamcatcher

154. Buy an album photo then put my past photos there

155. Enter Boscha in Bandung

156. Enter a large labyrinth

157. Go to the beautiful hill

158. Ride on a double decker bus

159. Seek for treasures

160. Find my dream guy

161. Cook new recipes, create my own

162. Earn money by myself

163. Meet my childhood friends
       Michael (When I was 12 at clinic)

164. Visit cheesecake factory

165. See a shooting star

166. Go overseas with a group of friends

167. Stay in a hut in the middle of forest

168. Plant a tree and watch it grow

169. Learn how to knit

170. Have a conversation with a foreigner
Korean, Portuguese, Japanese

171. Fingerprint test

172. Visit an alive museum

173. Own a cute hoodie

174. Go to amusement park with friends

175. Self camera on viking (Amusement park)

176. Shark cage swimming

177. Create a song

178. Ride a unicycle

179. Let go of a floating lantern

180. Escape

181. Write a love letter

182. Ride in a hot air balloon

183. Perform on a stage
At school (Choir, band, vocal group, duet, drama), at mall (Band)

184. Hold an owl

185. Visit an animal sanctuary

186. Find a four leaf clover

187. Get ice cream from an ice cream truck

188. Selfie with a lion or wild animals

189. Eat at a japanese buffet

190. Make an important decision with a coin toss

191. Ride in a limo

192. Discover my ancestry with MyHeritage DNA

Saturday, August 19, 2017

You probably can't relate but who cares

its always like this
everytime i like someone its unrequited
and every time someone likes me i dont like them back

why does he have to be younger
i feel weird if i keep liking him back

why does he have to be outspoken
i would be uncomfortable talking about things

why does he have to be spontaneous
i might feel bad if i decline things

why does he have to be so romantic
i have no idea what to respond its cringey but cute but whatever

fyi i dont mean to sound clichè & complain about my love life
like i know everything will be alright
and it will make sense gradually

its just that im quite worried
at this age
i still cant figure out what the hell is going on with my heart

why cant i be brave
why keep playing push and pull
why so stiff in front of crush
why cant i do something about the way i feel

and why keep making excuses
that we girls better wait eventho its impossible

how can he possibly know
if u just acting like creepy secret admirer
without giving any signals

like what do u expect from this silly scenario to be?
r u even on ur right mind?
unless u r super gross rich or freakin pretty,
u will never be able to get a prince charming
so wake up

- R, this is not a poem just so u know

Saturday, April 1, 2017

You never even knew

Pernah nggak, setiap lo denger nama "dia" disebut, perhatian lo langsung teralih? Cuma bisa sok bertingkah normal, terpaksa sembunyiin ekspresi kepo bahkan pura-pura nggak tertarik. Padahal gue pengen lebih banyak tau tentang dia, tapi gue nggak mau ketauan sama orang lain.

Pernah nggak, setiap lo di tengah keramaian dan berada di tempat familiar, lo berharap "dia" tiba-tiba lewat? Sampe semua orang dari kejauhan lo perhatiin dengan seksama, bahkan  sering kali ngira kalo itu "dia", padahal cuma figurnya aja yang mirip.

Pernah nggak, lo kayak orang ilang nungguin "dia" untuk sebatas lewat aja? Sampe mikir yang penting lo udah liat "dia" hari itu, meski nggak pernah interaksi sekalipun.

Pernah nggak, lo mimpiin "dia" dan seakan-akan itu terasa nyata? Saking kangennya karena udah nggak liat berhari-hari atau bahkan berminggu-minggu.

Pernah nggak, lo ngecek sosmed "dia" cuma buat cari tau apa kabarnya? Padahal yang diupdate itu foto "dia" sama pacarnya. Tapi bodohnya, gue tetep seneng. Bersyukur hidupnya masih baik-baik aja.

Pernah nggak, udah diujung lidah mau manggil nama "dia" buat nyapa, tapi lo malah batalin itu karena takut "dia" kebingungan sama sikap lo yang random? Sebenernya itu kesempatan emas, tapi karena gue nggak pede, semuanya jadi naas.

Pernah nggak, lo nggak sengaja saling tuker pandang sama "dia" abis itu langsung buang muka saking malunya? Bahkan meski cuma satu meter jarak gue sama "dia", gue nggak pernah berani curi pandang.

Pernah nggak, lo pengen banget move on tapi nggak bisa, cuma gara-gara nggak ada orang lain yang bisa ngegantiin sosok "dia"? Padahal kenal sama "dia" aja nggak, ngomong juga nggak pernah, bahkan gue nggak tau dia pernah mikirin gue atau nggak.

Pernah nggak, lo denger suara "dia" dan membeku di tempat?
Pernah nggak, dia tepat berada didepan lo, tapi lo malah pindah menjauh karena gemeteran?
Pernah nggak, setiap lagu yang lo denger, yang kebayang selalu "dia"?
Pernah nggak, lo sampe bikin akun pribadi baru cuma demi ngomongin dia?

Padahal semua yang gue lakuin itu nggak berbuah apa-apa.

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Welcoming New Semester

Alhamdulillah, semester 5 udah kelar. Meski belom tau hasil ipk gue berapa karena belom keluar 
Gue juga sangat bersyukur karena disempatkan berlibur kurang lebih selama seminggu. Nggak bisa dibilang libur sih, karena gue juga masih sibuk ngerjain ini itu━ yah, namanya juga tuntutan.

Dan setelah gue melihat jadwal kuliah, bersyukur juga kebagian harinya nggak rese dan ada waktu istirahat yang cukup jika seandainya disambil dengan kerja praktek. Duh, nggak kerasa bentar lagi gue udah mau tingkat akhir. Gue jadi gelisah sendiri mikirin masa depan. But it's normal to feel this way kan, yang penting gue fokus sama present dulu.

Liburan ini gue rencananya pengen ngasah skill cinematography, tapi kayak kurang bahan aja gitu. Jadinya ya balik ke rutinitas biasa deh ngerjain tugas himpunan, tugas klub, nonton film, bersih-bersih diri, pesta di kamar dan konser sendiri.

Hmm btw soal aktivitas liburan, kenapa ya gue paling nggak bisa ngerti sama istilah kata "gabut"? Like, gue tuh almost never do nothing, dan pasti selalu aja ada hal yang bisa di kerjain. Dan kalo gue ngeliat orang-orang masang status lagi gabut tuh, i was like... "WTF?"

Helloooo, lo bisa beresin kamar, nyuci sepatu, baca novel, browsing online shop, nonton, rombak isi lemari, ngelist harapan lo kedepan, nulis cerita, belajar bahasa asing, dengerin lagu sambil joget, jalan keliling komplek, berenang, olahraga, masak, bikin puisi, dan masih ada ratusan aktivitas lainnya... lalu kenapa tidak bisa memanfaatkan waktu itu sih??? Kalo seandainya aja gue nggak punya kerjaan, pasti gue bakal ngisi waktu itu untuk hal yang berguna, supaya gue nggak kayak orang bego bengong aja.

Oke, mungkin paragraf diatas terdengar agak "sombong" yah. Bukannya sombong sih, tapi sebagai seorang wanita yang tidak suka waktunya terbuang sia-sia, gue nggak bisa ngerti aja gitu. Kayak gue aja, waktu istirahat ya nonton... bisa sambil belajar pake english subtitle dan nyerap ilmu yang ada di film kan? Bhak. But seriously, semua yang gue ketahui itu hampir 70% dari film daripada tau lewat orang-orang di sekitar. Dan ya, ini agak serius sih masalahnya. Gue terlalu banyak tau. Mehehe

Sunday, January 29, 2017


Tugas-tugas terbengkalai.
Fisik udah lelah mondar-mandir mulu.
Mental hampir roboh karena beberapa kejadian belakangan.
Cobaan dari segala organisasi juga bertubi-tubi.
Keluarga lagi nggak enak banget keadaannya.
Masalah pribadi gue juga terpaksa ngendep aja.

Gue pengen liburan gitu deh sebulan dari beban-beban ini. Kenapa terkadang gue rela sih inisiatif sana-sini tanpa buat orang lain sadar sendiri atas konsekuensinya? Antara gue terlalu baik atau jaim atau bego.

Udah umur 20 loh ruf, berhenti jadi pengecut. Pengen negur orang-orang tapi posisi gue awkward banget buat ngelakuin hal itu. Heran sih. Mungkin gue salah tempat kali ya. Kenapa semuanya jadi serba salah gini sih di kehidupan gue.

Okelah, mungkin jadi intropeksi buat gue di semester depan ntar. Gue nggak akan bawel lagi atau inisiatif yang bisa dianggep kelewat caper dan bahkan gue nggak akan ngapa-ngapain lagi deh. Terserah aja, gue capek.

Minimal gue harus nyelesaiin ini semua dulu sampe akhir semester. Hang in there, girl.